Half Girlfriend - My Version

“Half “is not a word to define love coz love is something which blooms out full. We can feel it when it happens. But what made him my half boyfriend is the journey which we started together but stopped half way. When we had only half way to go, something happened all of a sudden from nowhere, which changed our fate and ended that relationship. 

It was like standing at the beach, so relaxed, when I was with him over the phone on the other side; I talked and talked until I uttered even the last word I wanted to tell him. And then I felt great when he listened and understood completely what I shared. When did I meet him? I don’t remember the exact date and time but yes, it was during one of the Onam celebrations during a time when I was busy with my studies. I don’t know what made me feel so good about him but I could feel the freshness of dawn in him, whenever we met. 

Time just flew by and we were more than friends, so comfortable with each other. Since he had seniority by two years, he left college and started working. But we didn’t fall out of love, our conversations kept on going but we never spoke about our love, to each other or rather it was already understood. I think sometimes we need to talk our heart out or else sometimes when we are dealing with the weakest of our emotions we feel like defeated.  And during those moments if we have something so sure of, then we don’t have to deeply worry about things which prick at our thought cells. 

I don’t feel like writing about it even now, years after the incident too. Life is good, but if I had that power to fight with my emotions, it would have made me write a full- relationship story, that of my boyfriend’s and not of a half girlfriend. 

But yeah, this is the story of a half relationship- the one that made me numb with guilt though I was fully innocent.  All I could do that time was to pour out my emotions as words as they came out since I was deeply upset. He couldn’t handle it too and he gave in and disappeared to nowhere.  He could have forgiven me but we can only behave like how humans do, at times. Good that we didn’t kill the relationship, half though, it’s like something that is been frozen to live but to never grow!